My husband, David, is in the Marine Corps so we are constantly moving. Trying to start over in every new state seems to be an adventure in itself. There is a lot of places to see and explore. A new adventure every weekend trying to find our own little restaurants, in hopes to make this new place our home. All the while, trying to make new friends and build a community in a place you know barely anyone. And through all of this, i have learned that life is awkward.
For instance this weekend David and I bought a new kayak! Which in itself, is very exciting for many reasons... as much as I love the idea of being an adventurous girl.... at heart, I really just like to do what I already know. SO this creates a problem considering the only place to go kayaking is in the ocean. I don't know the ocean. I never grew up near one. I like the idea of it, but being in the middle of the very large ocean that I COULD BE LOST IN, terrifies me. The only problem is.. it Seems that i didn't figure this out till we were in the ocean, past the harbor, and the waves had started to crash. I honestly feel bad for David because all of a sudden I am freaking out. Not just like a quiet not moving freak out, but more of a nauseous I am going to be sick if we don't turn around right this instant freak out. David just sits there confused and perplexed mainly because it was my idea to buy a kayak...
All I know is the idea of being adventurous is glorious. However, all I seem to do is master awkwardness. And So it goes, on our little life adventure of repeating the same weekends over and over again. Will I ever learn?? Probably not.
"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
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Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve
They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies
They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above
I am invincible
I am invincible
I am invincible
As long as I'm alive
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
I just can't wait til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for